“No-Self” is the Way to Enlightenment

I wanted to become an eternal hermit bathing in the joy of aloneness to stay alone forever because the others are the source of suffering, but Gods-Defenders deprived me of this chance. Thanks to possessing the highest wisdom, I succeeded in locking myself reliably in a separate room of the nature of the mind.

I wanted to become a great Yogin, and to control prana, and to demonstrate Siddhis. For this, I had been doing Yoga techniques diligently and got attached to them, but bad karma has broken my plans and has deprived me of this joy. I had to control prana without them, using just the mind - pure space.

I wanted to immerse myself into Unmani- Niralambha - the state without thoughts, forgetting about suffering of dual samsara, but The Great Guru has turned my eyes to the suffering of sentient beings and made me accept samsara.

I had to realize the emptiness of the objects.

I wanted to give myself to the Highest Divine power and the Guru, forgetting myself and my own will, to become obedient like wax in their hands, but I was told to become a master and to express my will continuously for the good of the others.

I wanted to become a mad man, an insane one, a holy fool, a roaming beggar, incoherently babbling and dancing with ecstasy on the top of the mountains, rejoicing at the sunrise, an eccentric like the wildest of all saints. But I was told to become reasonable, virtuous and respectable, respecting the opinion of the worst fool. In such a way, my madness of an empty mind got torn apart from all the objects, and I’m attaining the great fullness of non-connectedness with anything.

I am sobriety itself and oh, how mad and wild I am!

All the barriers are just an ornament of my Atman, all the activity is a spontaneous Leela for the good of everyone living in samsara.

Guru, The Gods of Kama-Loka, the spirits and alien karma worked hard to cleanse my non-dual vision, opening my true state beyond the mind. How grateful to them I am! Now I roam carelessly, walking on air like a normal person, but still there is a difference: he is alone, I am in thousands of bodies, and the light of my awareness does not dim neither at night nor in the day. He suffers meeting the barriers but I am glad with them. My space of awareness includes the Worlds of Gods of Rupa-Loka and Arupa-Loka, wherever one looks – everything is emptiness and bliss. I tread across the golden land, which has no trace of dirt.

How magnificent everything is! The whole land is the perfect mandala, the Buddhas’ abode. Everyone is great like Bodhidharma – a player practicing three naughtinesses, his play is perfect.

I also had to be tensely aware of emptiness of the

world.
If consciousness is limitless like the sky, then

what practice and studying of doctrines for? If the mind is immersed into the shining of Atman, what are rituals and sadhana for? If without digressing you are in the state of sahaja-sthiti by night and by day, where is meditation and where is no-meditation? If there is no one tied, where can the

thoughts about Liberation come from? When the pure and the impure have one taste, what is the virtue?

If without digressing you live without ideas about “I” and “others”, how can you “live for others”? And how not to live for this? If you are devoted to this state, who can reproach you in the absence of the devotion? If you are beyond the limits of adherence and violation, how can these vows be broken? If the tied one disappeared, how can one talk about the Liberation?